it seems corny but oh well.

yep, i'm having one of those overdone "end of the old year start of the new year" entries where i babble on nostalgic moments and try to recall memorable moments in the past year. it seems that every time i wanted to do this in the past, it always flopped because i always wound up being too lazy to sum up a year decently.

but i guess since i have nothing to do for the next 4 hours i might as well put my thoughts into words and share it on this public platform that caters to my narcissistic self.

so 2010. it started off slow yet life changing, what with my internship ending and me deciding that corporate life is probably not my thing. i did somewhat enjoy my half-year stint at weber, considering i had a rough start, but i made friends who i still enjoy meeting now and then to gossip about any and everything. but as the internship came to a close, i felt a calling for something else, something more meaningful and perhaps suited to my personality. which opened another chapter in my life, because i decided to do a little bit of relief teaching. a little bit turned into a lot, as i took on many classes and started teaching the weaker English classes, which i had a love-hate relationship with.

i began to realise how much i really wanted to change the standard of English in our local schools because so many students have no basic foundation in English that as they go up the levels in school, it gets more and more difficult for them to grasp the language, which made learning for them tiring and marking their work painful for me. i applied to NIE, hoping that this would set my path straight (for a good long time at least) as i really wanted to teach.

but nope, NIE rejected me, telling me there was a very high influx of JC students, which was as good as telling me to go suck it. at this point i got quite depressed, because i didn't know what to do with my life. i was almost completely positive that i didn't want to go back into PR because i didn't find it as meaningful. to make matters worse, i had to come to a very quick decision because the family finances were tight and i couldn't afford the luxury of lounging about deciding what to do with my life.

i started to send out job applications to pr companies because i realised it was the only thing i was sure i could excel at, and reluctant as i was to go back to the industry, i decided i had to do what i had to do. i wound up going to yinghao's internship company, where i met a great bunch of colleagues, but struggled to adapt to the different culture. there were points where i thought maybe it's not the place for me, and i should move on to something else, but just as these thoughts crept in, work seemed to magically improve, and now i can say i'm really into it.

apologies if i'm boring you, but i guess work is the first thing that comes to my mind nowadays, even through this festive season. so that sums up 2010's career trodden path, now moving on to the next aspect of my life, people!

i guess i made a lot of new friends this year, had a few weird friendships, and friends who initially started off pretty cool but later turned out to be pain in the asses. it was also the year where i finally didn't develop real feelings for anybody because after years of feeling like i needed someone, i realised only when the time is right will i find someone worth being with. all the half fucked characters i met along the way would have been detrimental to me and my sanity.

i became even closer to some of my good friends, realising how much we've grown up since the first days we've met each other, yet not forgetting the funtastical times we shared, be it in primary school, secondary school or poly. from talking about what our favourite shows are, we've moved to talking about jobs, the future, things we did wrong in the past, and how we are now. i've become especially close to one friend, who i'm surprised at how much we can talk about life now, and how when we talk i just can be completely honest with both of us. it always feels good to know that i have a bunch of friends who won't change, no matter what year it is.

and then there were people who really had unbelievable faith in me. people who entrusted their deepest secrets without one trace of doubt and uncertainty, and people who would put up with my depressed moments and whiny rambles without complaining. it stirred up a new faith in me, that i really am never alone in my life.

so... i believe you're like thinking when the fuck is she going to stop babbling. soon soon, let me do up a very brief point form summary first :)

i'll remember:

- running my first marathon thanks to my buddy yinghao
- getting my first real job
- going on my first holiday with gracelyn liyun and huimin
- experiencing many near death situations (i exaggerate) falling down (or up) flights of steps everywhere
- teaching my students and how they annoyed me so
- running to MBS with jeremy at 7am on my own free will on a Saturday morning
- not getting wasted
- demanding for the Megamind cup with tabitha

and so many other things..

ah well! it's almost impossible to be as concise as i can be :)

Happy 2011 everybody, let's have fun.

so in love.

with the idea of the upcoming Christmas holiday.

and the fact that i'm going on an intense workout with jeremy, to go back to my ideal weight.

and that eventually, i'll find my way out.

warning: long entry ahead.

There's a giant conglomerate, run by a family, providing hundreds of jobs to the masses, directly and indirectly. Everyone is beautiful. Everyone has perfect features, flawless skin and taut bodies. No one is unattractive or even plain.

Before anyone notices, upper management starts cheating on each other with each other's spouses, and awkwardness and betrayal ensue. The beauty of one person is not enough for each individual and because of the lack of comparison to less aesthetically pleasing beings, the hunger and desire for more overtakes and rules the heads of the people.

Silences and wars are started, leaving a lack of focus to the businesses on hand, resulting in profit margins being slashed and jobs being lost. Yet upper management's lust for beauty is insatiable and the slyness and infidelity continue.

Tears flow and some violence take over the normalcy of lives and soon, there is only but a sane person who can manage the conglomerate with a clear mind. But this mind is bedridden and has already left the company in the hands of those who are slowly destroying it.

And not before long, the conglomerate crashes down, resulting in major job layoffs everywhere, and heartbreak and loss now pervade.

Imagine, a world run by beautiful people, and only beautiful people.

I'm just kidding.