okay it's official. my xanga has permanently locked me out.

WHYYYY. 

oh well. anyway tomorrow is the new balance run. i'm not as scared as the previous time, but i do feel pretty unprepared because i haven't trained and the last time i ran was like a month ago maybe? for some reason, i just can't find the drive and motivation to run consistently. 

yes, i'm lazy. 

anyway i feel a little silly blogging here because everyone's prolly still heading to my xanga, and i can't redirect them here because i can't sign in and if i could sign in i wouldn't need this space anyway right so the point is i'm here because i'm locked out and i can't sign in so i can't tell people i'm here but i wouldn't need this space if i could sign in!

but at the same time i don't want to upload the link onto facebook because i don't like people poking their noses in here, not that i'm a celebrity but you get the idea. 

fuck, do you find my writing is getting worse? i'm losing my style. i can't weave words together the way i used to be able to. sadness. my last and only talent is withering away into mediocre nothingness and soon i'll be writing like any old secondary school kid. 

ah well.